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the school year is almost over now, and i dont want to lose touch with any of you.
if you ever want to do anything over the summer, feel free to call me.
i love you all.
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[06 Apr 2004|07:30pm] |
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We run we jump we swim and play. We always go on trips. But the thing that lasts forever. Are our dear friendships. Camp Anawana we hold you in our hears and when we think about you, (BUDNICK):IT MAKES ME WANT TO FART. (UG)It's I hope we never part now get it right or pay the price. Now we will share a lifetime of our finest memories. By the lake of Anawana, sat in the old pinetrees. Camp Anawana, we hold you in our hearts and when we think about you DONKEYLIPS: This thing just came apart. SING ANAWANA, THINK ANAWANA, LIVE ANAWANA UG!!!!! I did this from memory...if theres any part i forgot let me know. i miss salute your shorts,clarissa explains it all ,ren and stimpy, legends of the hidden temple, pete and pete - reppin artie the strongest man in the world, yo, hey dude. nickolodeon bites my ass now. the rugrats finally grew up and they suck more than ever. MY FAVORITE NINJA TURTLE WAS DONATELLO
memories
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[06 Apr 2004|03:37pm] |
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i miss deanna a whole lot
my sister bugs the crap out of me
i hate mrs. labonte
i love you jessicaraecheldeannasarahknightsarahkelleyginajohnryancoreyamandaeamandanaztylerandeveryoneelse!
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[02 Apr 2004|10:30am] |
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school was retarded. end of story.
he should have gone with leslie!
maybe im trying to hard to be appreciated by him and everyone.
i have a new screen name. pronounsrock
i miss deanna a lot.
but its still ok with rae and jeff
the jesus play was funny. jesus was masturbating off to the side half of the time. ashton fell. haahahaha. gabby said "handle me". and me and sarah kelley thought andy was skankilicious.
MITCH HEDBERG IS ON TV RIGHT NOW
went to ccs with the mom.
talked about allie.
i miss her.
i wish she were here.
i wish she knew how much i loved her.
i just didnt get to say goodbye.
goodbye, dear friend. i love you.
<3
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PIMP SMACK YOU UP
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[31 Mar 2004|06:44pm] |
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A Perfect Circle in concert UNO Lakefront Arena Thursday May 27 2004 7:30PM
WHOS BRINGING ME?!
attempt 2 at asking the mom to stay at jessica's. will it succeed? no. but im asking anyway. i have a feeling she'll be more leniant.
no homework, and i feel like i am forgetting something REALLY important.
i love you a lot.
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[31 Mar 2004|03:12pm] |
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i have a cold right now.
im at jessicas waiting for my sprite to freeeeeze.
i really have nothing to say.
my dad is bringing me to panama city this summer. i love my dad a lot, and im so happy to spend time with him. i just wish i could see him more often.
i have no plans for the weekend.
there's a street called weiner creek.
me and gina found it a while back.
late last week jeffrey called me sarah and tried to kill me by not giving me a sip of his drink. i forgave him yesterday. maybe it was monday. one of the two. i wasn't really mad, although i was upset that he called me sarah. but hey, its a compliment in the highest form. but he was trying to apologize and he called me sarah. that makes it 789945543564 times worse.
RAECHEL called me sarah. i know. i thought she loved me too. i look nothing like any sarah's. seriously. raechel, although you don't love me, i can't help but fall in love with you everytime i see your face. although that doesn't mean i'll let you touch me ever again.
people stop forgetting my name please?
mmmm boy. jessica is so delicious. to the max.
11 years with that hott hunk of woman.
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[28 Mar 2004|12:04pm] |
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had a great time at camp marydale (girl scout trip)
there's nothing wrong with a free trip to everywhere.
saw anne and chris. ah i love them so. WHY DID THEY GO TO NOT BISHOP!? all we did was walk. basically. helped out little kids. one girl got an attitude with me and I made her stick her finger in an ant pile for 20 seconds. =)
i found out the coolest campfire songs:
Weiner man:
Weiner Man,
Weiner Man,
Rah rah Weiner Man,
I know a Weiner Man
He owns a Weiner stand,
He sells hot dogs,
From small to big, big, big
One day I'll be his wife,
His little weiner wife,
Hot dog I love that weiner man,
HOT DOG!
Fooba-Wooba John:
Saw a snail chase a whale,
Fooba-Wooba, Fooba-Wooba,
Saw a snail chase a whale,
Fooba-Wooba John
Saw a snail chase a whale all around the water pale,
Hey, John, Ho, John, Fooba-Wooba John.
That's all.
We fed the camp dog some greenbeans and he got an erection.
We found a manx. I named him wicked awesome.
We camped by these fat asses, and they had a shit load of good food. We ate all of it while they were hiking, and they thought bears ate it.
After 2 days of no technology, which sounds pathetic, we finally got in the car and listened to the radio for two hours. Lots of rap[e], plenty of good music, and country. Then Avril Lavigne came on, and I wanted to slit both of my wrists.
We went on the canoes, and walked everywhere since we were 2 miles from then nearest everything.
I hope we get to go to Schliterbom. Oh boy. One of the greatest theme parks in the US? Here we come.
I miss all of you, and I can't wait to see you tomorrow.
<3
6 in tha mornin'.
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[24 Mar 2004|05:08pm] |
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ok last monday my moms student nikita brought in 2 hamsters. 2. since it was iowa testing my mom put them in Mrs. Jones room so the kids wouldn't be distracted by them. These two hamsters were the exact same size, same color, with the black line down thier back. that night, one of the hamsters escaped. by friday it never surfaced, so my mom just brought us that 1 home. so now we had 1 and the other was lost. so then friday during Mrs. joneses movie one of the girls screamed A MOUSE! and all the kids and the teacher went outside, and called the custodian. the custodian got there and tried to get the hamsters with one of those things that you squeeze the handle, and it picks up trash. well she squeezed it so hard, its leg CAME OFF. ew. and it was still alive. it died later on that night. so that means we have one, and the other died. there were only two to begin with. then today, my mom sent 2 of her students out. one to bring attendance and the other to bring the lunch list to the cafeteria lady. well the one with the lunch list comes back screaming MRS. ______ CAUGHT A HAMSTER! and my mom was all "no way" so my mom gets someone to watch her class and walks into the cafeteria. the lady told her that she found a hamster by the big blue dumpster. THIS HAMSTER LOOKS EXACTLY THE SAME AS THE ONE WE HAVE NOW. but much tinier.
we have 2 hamsters. WOOT! pudgey and tiny. pretty much how i tell them apart.
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[22 Mar 2004|06:28pm] |
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Today was coooool.
I found out Leann has a LJ. I love her. I love it. I love reading about her. I love you, JuniorFace.
I also found out Manda has one too. I love her also, and I love reading about her. I love you, otherjuniorface.
Dear Daddy,
I miss you an awful lot. Seeing my friends with their dads makes me wish you were here with me. Why must you live in Kentucky? Seeing you 2 times a year isn't enough for a 14 year old girl, or any age for that matter. I love you. A lot. I only wish that you were reading this. Where are you? You never answer when I call...Just answer next time ok? I just want to know how you are doing. I love you so much. xo
Bye.
Love,
me
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Dear Meagan,
You are the most retarded piece of human apathy EVER. There's nothing good about you. Why won't you just make everybody happy and die.
-Conscience
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[20 Mar 2004|11:10am] |
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the hamster actually likes me. its starting to warm up to me, and let me pick it up and play with it.
it needs a name. any ideas?
i might get a new lj name. i dont know. maybe.
i feel like a dick for writing what i wrote last night. sorry.
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I hate this. CAN ANYTHING ELSE GO WRONG TODAY!?
My hamster is the devil...and it keeps biting me. I have the right mind to let my cats tear its little body into shreds.
My cat's been missing all day.
Elizabeth is sad and won't tell me why.
I think Nick Langlois hates me.
I think Jeffrey Wells hates me.
I think I am starting to think EVERYONE hates me.
I think I annoy everyone.
Everyone I make friends with are only going to be gone in 4 years.
I am tired of growing attached to people, only to find that they leave me.
I'm tired of thinking I annoy everyone, which is what I do think.
My mom won't let me kill our hamster to get a nicer one.
I lost my CD.
I hate my hair.
I DONT KNOW HOW TO WRITE HOW I FEEL ON THIS GOD DAMNED JOURNAL!
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[17 Mar 2004|07:48pm] |
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today was a good day. Jeffrey almost made me cry like 4 times. but thats ok. no it isnt. i was sitting out in pe and he splashed mud on my tiara and then he called me a liar and then he splashed mud on my and then i dont remember what else he did. ah well. sarah knight and sarah kelly and rachel made my pe awesome after jeffrey killed it. i love you so much sarah sarah and rachel.
my mom forgot the hamster. HAMSTER! not hamsters. Want to know why there is only one, now? because one chewed its way out of the cage. gay. and there's one left....still need to find a name for the little pain in the ass. today was ROCK!
oh yeah, i got my hair cut. =] i think i look like im a 9 year old girl, but whutev.
ken and brad are here. fetus is trying to kill brad, and ken is making nasty keesh. bleh.
<3
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[16 Mar 2004|06:37pm] |
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I'm feeling pretty good. It's because I am at Jessica's house. Whenever I am at Jessica's house, I feel good. Always. Except when her mom fusses about something I do...er...she doesn't like me very much. Well, I know my mom says I am not allowed to spend the night here on the weekdays anymore, but I figured since I am grounded for a month for my F in Civics, I will beg her. Because this will be my last chance for a long time to spend the night here. Or do anything, rather. Well, I hope it goes well.
About that F in Civics...last week, he was absent Thursday and Friday...so Wednesday I asked him what my grade was, and he said, "82 C" and I said "YAY!" and then he was back on monday, and I asked him what my grade was, and he said, "65 F". WHAT KIND OF BULL IS THAT!? We had one thing due for Ms. Johnson, and it wasn't for a grade. BULL BULL BULL. And now, I am grounded for a month. I'm not worried, because I think I deserve it. I HAVE been kind of slacking off when it comes to school. On my honor...I will try...to do better in school. Starting today.
I'm not allowed at Jessica's house anymore on weekday's because she was late a few times for school, and my mom doesn't trust Mrs. Candace to bring me on time, anymore. Which is a bunch of crockery, because she has NEVER brought me not on time. I am always early when I stay here, and I like being early. But no. It's 6:42 and my mom gets off at 7:00 and she said she was coming straight here to get me, but calling first. Hopefully my begging will do the trick, and if not, it's another boring night at home for me.
2 GREAT THINGS ABOUT TOMORROW! My wonderful mother's student is giving her 2 hamsters, and they are MINE! Since Jessica's mom is mean, I'm going to let Jessica have one but keep it at my house. They will stay in my room. My hamsters name is going to be World Domination. =] The other great thing, is I am getting a haircut. Jessica is coming with me, so they can see what I want. I've explained what I want to you 789456123 times, so I won't do it again. Well, tomorrow will be the last day of my long hair. But you won't get to see how long it is, because it will most likely be in a bun. =]
I love my hair cut and hamsters already.
Pray my hair-stylist doesn't screw up and accidently shave off all of my hair. I won't be going to school until it grows back, if that happens...which it shouldn't.
MEAGAN HOW CAN YOU TAKE SOMETHING YOU ARE SO HAPPY ABOUT, AND MAKE BAD THOUGHTS OUT OF IT!? You freakface...
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I'm feeling really shitty...I feel like I have been letting everyone down, and annoying the crap out of EVERYONE that I've been talking to today. I'm sorry if any of you are mad at me, or if I have done anything to offend you...or annoy you. I hate that I am how I am...constantly worrying that people who I consider my friends hate me...and talk about how annoying I am. I know most of them probably do, and it hurts and saddens me to think so. But hello, Meagan. Wake up. It's the truth. I would name the people who I think hate me, but most of you read this. So I won't.
I guess you could say that I am excited about Marydale...Jessica won't be there so that's a bummer, but I will be able to see everyone that I want to see (and unfortunately some people I DON'T want to see) there. Yay. Guh. If Dakota would stop barking...
It's official. I am getting my hair cut Wednesday. I'm really excited. I wish Sarah Kelly or Deanna could do it, because it would save us money and time, but my mom is weird, and I highly doubt she would let them. Hair length...shortened a LOT....and I am getting my bangs back. =] Yayay. This makes me happy.
I had good fun on Saturday night. With Jessica, Gina, Haylie, and Erica. All at Jessica's house. We sat on the balcony all night, while Haylie was on the phone with Deven, Brandon, and Brennan, and I stayed on the phone with Christian for 4 hours. Not on purpose. We just got to talking, and had a good time.
I wanted Brooke to come over Friday night, but she couldn't. Bummer. I love her.
Me and Gina helped out at the auction from 9-1. It was fun. We cleaned the concession stand, and made it pretty, although the lady hated it and took it all down when we were done. We also had to work with Meghan Hein. Not had to, she just kind of invited herself. We went back to Gina's house, after stopping to get Taco Bell. Her mom is awesome. Her sister is pretty cool too. (Sorry Gina) I just know what it feels like to have your older sister's friends be mean to you. It's all of her friends, and I really don't want my friends little siblings to feel what I feel from my sisters friends.
Deanna was there. =] She makes me smile. Oh, so was Jeffrey. We had bunches of fun, although we really didn't get to work together. Deanna you are so tute and I <3 you.
Well, me and Gina now have wands, and we are pretty princesses. I shall go, now. Goodbye.
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OK. Yesterday I ended up NOT going to those people houses which was good, because I really just didn't want to.
It's 7:53 and I woke up at 7:15 because Gina and I are going to the auction thingy this morning to help set up. I don't need anymore school service hours, I already have 5 (+4). I just want to spend time with Gina. Maybe do what we've been wanting to do for the past week. =] It would be realy funny. But it's too bright to do it.We need to do it at night-time. Turns out Deanna is going to be there also. I hope we meet up and spend the day together because Deanna is such a beautiful person, and spending time with her out of school would make me SO happy.
I'm hoping that there will only be a few students there. But, with my luck there are probably going to be 985340285930285 students there. I don't want that!
Oy. I'm so tired. But I get this good feeling out of waking up early and going to do some work. I feel like I've maintained a certain amount of responsibility over the years, but when I actual put forth effort to do things? Man oh man. That's a good feeling. I mean, yeah, I do wish that I could be sleeping instead. But oh, not this time.
I WANT TO SPEND TIME WITH GINA REALLY BAD! And since my mom already trusts Gina's mom to bring me places maybe I can start going to her house. Yay! Wishful thinking.
It's 8:01. Yeah. Gina will be here in abou 14 minutes.
I love you Gina.
I love you Deanna.
You are both so special to me.
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I can't explain how much I want bangs..I want them so tremendously bad. We have no money to go get it cut, and no time. I would let my friends do it, but my mom would KILL me. I don't even think she would be ok letting Jessica take me, without her knowing what I want done. Deanna, I would love for you to do it. But again, my mom would strangle me. I want them kind of like Jessica's, but all the way around and not on the side. and I want them longer on the ends. "Layered" as Jessica calls them. I WANT THEM SO BAD I COULD DO IT MYSELF IF I TRUSTED MYSELF NOT TO CUT ALL OF MY HAIR OFF!
Off to Jessica's people I have never met's house.
I hope this is fun.
Because I want fun.
More like I need it.
I hope they are cool.
I hope they don't ruin the night.
I hope they don't make me regret not going to the movies tonight with Jessica.
I hope they don't get drunk.
I hope I don't feel uncomfortable the whole time.
I hope they don't make me feel uncomfortable the whole time.
Haley and Erica, here I come. Please, don't make me feel unconfortable. I really don't want to feel like that tonight. I want to go to the movies, and go to fantastic sams and cut my hair. What's all this "I want" and "I hope" and "I need" and "Please" Meagan? God you suck. You are such a whiner.
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[11 Mar 2004|09:51pm] |
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We've got a good thing going, but I'm always the one to fuck it up. There's only so much rejection I can take. I'd give the world to you, and you know that..hell, I've tried. But for a while now, it seems as if anything I do is never good enough or worthy of some sign of affection. I'm the type of person that needs affection. I'm the type of person that needs to be told that she's loved. I don't like to assume things, because then I feel like i've cheated myself out of something. I need to know that you care, it's the main thing that keeps me going every day. I'm the type of person who loves the little things that you do to show me that you care, because it's the little things that mean the most in the end. I need you to treat me like i'm special because no one else will do that for me. I need to know that we're going to be alright because the pessimist inside of me tells me that everything is going to crumble. I need to know that you'll be there for me when I need you, because you know that I do it for you. I need you to actually be there for me when the time comes. your the one I trust, your the one I love, your the one I need. please help me figure out what is going on...
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